The Lost Sense of Freedom: Balancing Risk and Resilience in Motorcycling

My journey into motorcycling was more a result of circumstance than a lifelong passion. My father's early advice to wait until I was older and more experienced played a significant role in my delayed entry into this lifestyle. However, once the stage was set, it was a declaration of my independence brought to life.

From Spectator to Participant

As a child, I was surrounded by motorsports, both car and motorcycle races. My father’s own history with scooters and geared bikes stayed with me, serving as a reminder of the importance of roadcraft and safety. Yet, my entry into the world of bikes came much later, at the age of 20, after I received a car for my 18th birthday.

The transition from a spectator to an active participant in motorsports was gradual. My initial foray into track days and race events like banger racing provided both joy and lessons in resilience. I honed my skills over the years, but the responsibilities of work and life gradually withdrew me from the scene.

The Turning Point

The turning point came during a holiday in Thailand in 2013, where I borrowed a 125cc scooter from a friend. It was a revelation, triggering a new chapter in my life. Shortly after, I purchased my first motorcycle from a work friend and embarked on a quest to obtain a full license. I passed my tests with flying colors, a testament to my determination and the importance of respecting the rules of the road.

A World of Adventure

The impact of motorcycling on my life was profound. My motorcycles have taken me across the globe, from India and Africa to the Caribbean, Italy, Spain, France, and the USA. The union jack on my gloves became a symbol of my adventures, a constant companion as I explored new terrains.

A few years ago, I even bought a pair of summer riding gloves emblazoned with the Union Jack, a tribute to my international travels. One memorable photo captures me riding a rented Harley Davidson Road King Classic up Highway 1 in Northern California. These motorcycles have not only taken me places but have also become a part of my daily life, reflecting my sense of exploration and freedom.

A Friendship Forged in Motorsports

Amidst the joy of motorcycling, my friendship with my best friend remained unwavering. We remained best friends even as motorsports came to a halt. From day-to-day activities to weekend adventures, we supported each other through thick and thin. The memories of our latest escapade, constructing a koi pond in his garden, highlight the deep bond we share.

The Unforeseen Twist of Fate

Unfortunately, our shared joy in motorcycling was abruptly cut short by a tragic event. As my friend was preparing his vintage Honda bike for a road test, he faced an unexpected accident. While helping a fellow rider, he found himself in a similar situation, leading to a near-miss. However, the final twist came when he was involved in another accident, resulting in his sudden passing. This event left an indelible mark on my life, testing my emotional resilience and sense of loss.

The grief I felt was immense, leading me to question my ability to ride again. The incident made me realize the true risks involved in motorcycling. The loss of freedom is a small price to pay compared to the loss of a friend who was like a brother to me. My logic tells me that if the same event had occurred in a car accident, I would still drive. However, the risks are inherently different when riding a motorcycle.

I have come to understand that the respect for the potential danger is not just about personal safety but also about the security of those around us. While I may continue to ride, there is a strong possibility that I might shift towards less demanding motorcycles. This decision is not just about reducing risks but also about balancing emotional and mental well-being.

Conclusion

While motorcycling has brought me incredible adventures and a sense of freedom, the events of the last month have made me reflect deeply on the safety and emotional aspect of the sport. The loss of a friend has been a profound experience, and I am still grappling with the decision to continue or step away from riding. The journey ahead will be shaped by this balance of risk, resilience, and the respect for the loved ones we hold dear.